Saw a seagull out the window. This is good, 'cos I promised my brother a while back I’d try and get him a photo of a seagull.
Grabbed my camera, stuck a big lens on it and leaned out the window to shoot. Took a couple of shots, both blurry.
Remembered it’s because the auto focus on that body (which I bought to replace an old body with borked auto focus) is borked, and it’s too late to do anything about it.
I’m feeling beat up too, but that’s down to just being a complete lazy shit and eating biscuits. I need to get into some routine of at least moving but i’m too lazy right now.
Edit: not suggesting you’re lazy like me
Fully understandable that you’ve been hit with this, holy shit. You can’t even think about it though, let alone let it weigh you down. Keep keeping your head up man, this’ll pass.
It isn’t the worst time to be made redundant, at least. There’s gonna need to be a lot of help rolled out soon. When furlough ends at the end of October it’s going to be devastation.
Don’t think you’re being unreasonable at all. We just sacked off our brother in laws 40th as he insisted on going to France for it. Fuck that. My mums 70th ended up being 8 of us sat apart in my back garden. Not ideal but needs must.
Is there no option to just say no or is it too late?
Do what’s best for you and your family. Your wife is going through the absolute ringer at the moment, not to mention your bad back, recent move, dropping kids off, etc. Obviously it’s cool to have a trip to see friends for a big birthday and whatnot, but, jesus, chemo pretty much trumps everything. All that is a complete logisitcal nightmare for you, and it sounds like you’d really prefer to avoid it, so then sack it off. If birthday boy/girl is whinging that you guys are having a ballache getting there, nevermind the health complications, then sack them off. Fuck that shit.
Redundancy should give you a payoff, right?
Plus you have an interview, fuck yeah, that’s rad… That’s should be a big confidence boost in itself. Get on it fella! There’s not a chance in hell you’d be called in for an interview if they didn’t think you could do the job. Go there and smash it - you miss all of the shots you don’t take.
I remember in Melbourne around time that Cards AND Rodney Clarke got paralysed the thermometer in the living room would only go up to 50 and it maxed out, there was one fan in middle of room and there was nothing else to do except to get baked and sit there synchronised with everyone else trying to get as much fan time as possible, it was hell